sidetracked

Oh, hell.

This is the sound of me not getting things done. Damn it! I had 100% good intentions and everything really just flew out the window the moment the work day started. Schedule? Nope, not today. I’m still trying to get work things done in between paragraphs here. Time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping, into the future.

Holidays are, apparently, bad for my mojo. I really don’t need a day off of my routine because it seems to make it that much more difficult to pick up where I left off. I live in a perpetual catch-22 of ‘do everything and burn out’ or ‘do nothing and be mad about it’. There’s no happy medium. There never is. I’m working on finding it, but I also keep adding things to my list. There are at least 2 other things for my list for today and about 100 minutes to get them done. And those are really just the “I REALLY gotta get these things done today” things. There are other things that are important, but not at this level and unfortunately, one of them may get done first simply because my brain needs a break.

While I break, I still think, I just think about random things which usually means astrology. Perhaps you’ve had your birth chart done, perhaps not, but it’s a fun little thing to do if you know what time you were born. Now, do I fully believe that for each hour period of any given day in, basically, history, that when each of us were born we had a little bit of glitter sprinkled on us that gave us the same traits as everyone else born in that little period of time? Huh. Well, I guess now that I put it that way, it’s kind of a cool way to think about it and maybe I do believe that.

Regardless of what you believe (because this is MY space on the internet, after all), sometimes birth charts hit some things right on the nose. Some things are super off, and of course, some things are a yes one day and a no the next because, hello, have you met me?

There are almost 30 little sections that make up my birth chart from the website where I got it. I think I want to talk a little about all of the sections, but certainly not all at once. I have other things I need to do yet, remember? Let’s maybe look at a few.

Most people know their Sun sign. It’s the sign you identify as if/when you read your horoscope and it’s based on just your birthday. It’s the heart of your identity based on what’s important to you both internally and externally. Each of the sections of my birth chart has a whole lengthy piece with some generalities about positives and negatives and a kind of summary. I’m a Sagittarius. A fire sign.

The good:

  • Enthusiastic
  • Idealistic
  • Warm-hearted
  • Independent
  • Curious
  • Fair-minded
  • Strong negotiator
  • Infectious optimism

The not-so-good:

  • Too adventurous
  • May leave things to chance
  • May take risks that cause problems
  • Rebellious
  • Sometimes tactless
  • Quick tempered
  • Lack focus and can be indecisive

SHOTS FIRED!!

Damn! I guess I gotta take the good with the bad because it’s all me, but those bads are soooooo me. On this round, natal chart: 1, me: 0. Let’s see what the moon has to say.

Your moon sign is representative of your really inner shit. How you take care of yourself and how you show it to everyone else. I think that your moon sign is always opposite your sun sign. Don’t shoot me if I’m wrong. You got here, you know how to use the internet to look it up. My moon sign is opposite my sun sign, meaning I have the moon in Gemini. You know Gemini is the twins, right? And this is my inner shit? Yeah, there’s definitely two mofos fighting it out in there. Well, moon, show me the money.

The good:

  • Witty
  • Well-informed
  • Adaptable
  • Realistically optimistic which contributes to my “luck”
  • Fun to be around
  • Tolerant
  • Generous

And the not-so-good:

  • Restless
  • Pay too much attention to others losing focus on what I want to do
  • Moody
  • Poor follow-up on ideas
  • Indecision

Well, the moon didn’t get the gun out, but social media, no matter how much I need it to be in touch with y’all, is the not-so-good bullet number two. Number 4 is another one that is a real sore spot for me. I know all of these things about myself, but it’s kinda strange to have a piece of paper based on where stars were at the time I was born be so accurate. Oh no! Am I a BASIC SAGITTARIUS?!?! Ha. There’s surely no such thing.

Come back tomorrow when I’ll be ducking shots from Mercury, Venus, and Mars. If I can sustain my well-being, maybe Jupiter too. See ya then!

Let’s Go, Let’s Work!

Roll your body, work those hips

Yikes, y’all. I can clearly see why I get nothing done. Now, can I somehow make myself fix it?

I give myself this time period to empty my head of these random thoughts before I fill it up again. When I write these, the first step is to find a song that somehow correlates to what I’m rambling about for the day. This is usually the first step in my downfall of how I don’t get something posted. Today it looked like this: I need a song about putting things off or getting things done. Off to Google and then down the rabbit hole. I ended up on lists of songs about procrastination (which I didn’t really want). Oh, then I needed to know what kind of procrastinator I am. Oh, and then that page took me to another page so I could see my Chinese zodiac sign as a cartoon. Shit! I’m off on a tangent. Ok, back on track, I need a song. Oh, I love this song, is there an actual video? Hmmm, doesn’t look like it, but look at all this Lil Jon! I didn’t even realize I liked that much Lil Jon. If you need a NSFW laugh, go watch this video. I laughed so freaking hard and that’s why it takes forever to get a damn post done.

It’s a new day and I have a new opportunity to work myself into the schedule that I’ve set for myself. I’m fully aware of how time-blocking is supposed to work and if I am doing A when I’m supposed to be doing B, then when it’s time for B, I need to make it up with A. My rational mind knows this, but my rational mind isn’t very often running shit. So yesterday I got all off of my schedule and let the whole day go down in flames. I’m going to try to do better today. I have high hopes for myself. If I don’t keep getting sidetracked by YouTube. Damn, I’m a mess. Videos from the 90s give me life. And I feel like I need to learn some Thong Song choreography.

This morning I thought for a moment that maybe I have a little ADD or ADHD or something to that effect. I do find it difficult to stay focused these days. Perhaps not though. But is this one of those things where “they” say “just apply yourself” but dude, I’m trying. I just put a thin layer over here and a thin layer over there and that’s why nothing ever gets fully covered lol. And I keep adding things to the palette. It never ends. What is wrong with me?!?!? Seriously, right now I have a full-time job, a part-time job, a 200 hr yoga training to take, 3 ambassadorships (I mean, that’s just posting on IG but still), and 3 little side hustles that I’m trying to get into position. See? Why?

My standard M.O. is to pile on all these things, start one or two, get overwhelmed because I took on too much and then quit everything. I’m trying really hard to avoid that this time. I mean, I can’t quit the full-time job, lol. The part-time job is scheduled kinda like the full-time one with considerably less hours, obviously, so that one is also easy to have on the schedule. It’s the rest of the things that are what are gonna try to knock me down. Calendars and lists are gonna save my life and my sanity and get me on the right track. This is it! This is my time. Let’s go, let’s work!